It still doesn't feel real. Instead, I just have this bizarre sense of not knowing what to write about. I had all of these thoughtful post ideas to write about during my wait and this was stripped of me in half the time I was anticipating. Not that I'm complaining.
The biggest benefit of this early testing business is that it wasn't expected by anyone. Many people knew about our IVF procedure. Many of those people knew about the specific day that my blood test was scheduled for. This makes is hard to keep it between C and I for more than a moment without avoiding people. And some of those people, as in my parents, we live with.
So we decided to keep it to ourselves and to enjoy in this secret. At least until Friday. We'll see after that. I might try to hold out until Tuesday for my family since my sister AE is coming into town over the weekend and I already "promised" her I wouldn't know anything at that time.
Do you feel, just a little bit, like a non-IF woman who's able to keep pregnancy a secret because the entire world doesn't know when you tested?
ReplyDeleteThat's an interesting perspective. I didn't think of it, but you're probably absolutely correct! And I have to say, it's a nice feeling.
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