My anatomy scan is coming up at the end of this week, at exactly the beginning of week 19 because we will be on vacation the following week. I am really excited to stop referring to the baby as "it".
The gender is the number one question that I get asked when people congratulate me on my ever-expanding belly. C and I are definitely interested in knowing ourselves, primarily because of the "it" issue and that I am horribly impatient, but I'm not yet certain if I want the world to know quite yet. There is something so incredibly un-private about being pregnant. It suddenly becomes okay for people to comment on my changing body shape, touch you, and ask personal questions. On the other hand, I am a horrible liar so I'm really not sure how to approach the answer to the number one question these days, "do you know the gender yet?"
Another interesting phenomena that has occurred is that most people like to offer unsolicited guesses as to what the gender will be. This part is probably not all that interesting. The interesting part is that every single person has guessed that the baby will be a boy. EVERY SINGLE PERSON. It started getting really creepy actually. Anyone who gave a reasoning, tended to use different wives tales to justify, only making it creepier. The heartbeat is on the slower end, but the extensive research I've done says that this really is nothing more than an old wives tale with no evidence to back it up. I still look pretty and apparently if he/she is a girl then my "she would steal your beauty"; however, my aunt claimed this on a day that I was dressed for a wedding and spent at least five times the usual amount of usual effort in getting ready to look nice. I am carrying more in the front, or higher up, or something. I can't tell how I'm carrying compared with anyone else, so this one really makes no sense to me.
I really don't have a strong preference one way or the other. However, boys scare me. I never had any brothers. I'm obviously not male. I'm not sure what to do with a boy. I really don't know how different they are from girls or if this is really a silly to thing to worry about. Also, the oppositional side of me now really wants to prove everyone-and-thier-mother wrong as further evidence for justifying people to keep their nose out of other people's business. So I suppose there is a very slight preference for a girl, but in reality all of these reasons are very silly and I really am just excited to find out so I can more easily continue bonding.
Sometimes I think about the original purpose of the anatomy scan, which is to determine if the baby is growing appropriately and proportionately and to identify any early signs of issues. That is the real deal. However, thoughts of everything that could be wrong, everything that they are really checking for, is worrisome. Wondering about the gender is a much more hopeful and enjoyable way to anticipate this upcoming ultrasound. So, like many other mothers before me, I choose to focus on the least significant but most anticipated result and continue fantasizing about whether we will narrowing down the name list to girls or boys.