Saying It Out Loud

I'm not sure why it's taken me so long to post about this. Our appointment was on Tuesday. We've been talking seriously about it since last weekend.

I think I am still trying to wrap my head around it. Or also I feel embarrassed and rash and impulsive. For the regular followers, this may not come across as much of a surprise. There's been plenty of unintentional foreshadowing.

We are moving forward on IVF. Skipping IUI completely. After only one previous ovulation and one HSG cycle.Yes, we're crazy. Jumping the gun. Rash. Impulsive. Impatient. Over-reactive. Pick your adjective.

For better or worse, this decision was primarily financially driven. It is also based on my history and research. Injectable drugs protocols are expensive and, unfortunately, we've learned that I do not ovulate on anything less. The last cycle was damned-near perfect and I didn't get pregnant. In talking with the RE, there really isn't much they would want to do differently, aside from adding in IUI which could likely help to a small degree but not significantly as C's sperm are not the issue. With another round of the same, I'd have very similar odds.

The likelihood is probably that with enough rounds of FSH/IUI, and assuming there isn't something else wrong that's gone undetected until now, I'd probably get pregnant. Eventually. The concern is that by the time we've exhausted several more round of this approach, we will no longer have the money or resources to pursue more advanced options (read: IVF). I firmly believe that our decision would be different if money were not an option, if we had insurance coverage: we would take our time and be more patient. But sadly, money is one of the biggest factors in the story of us making a baby; not love, not sex, not even science.

So after 18 months off birth control, one successful ovulation, and no IUI treatments, we are officially putting this behind us and moving on to the much more costly, and hopefully much more effective, option of IVF.